Everyone is talking about race, politics and gender. Where does the conscientous black woman voter stand?
Is there any room for me?
I feel left out. I feel closeted. I feel reposed.
I WANT to endorse Barack Obama. I have been scouring blogs, websites, and research for months. I am a former campaign volunteer for Barack Obama's senate campaign. I am from the South Side of Chicago. I SHOULD by all means be on board. I WANT to be ON BOARD! But I just can't!
I must hide in shame. I must cower in the dark.
Like so many other friends have commented, my non-black friends have been congratulating me for months on his successes, assuming I am for him because I am black. I have weighed every strategy, and looked into every aspect I could fathom. I have sent up smoke stacks on every blog I have visited for supporters to PLEASE send concrete evidence as to why he should be supported. I have visited his senate site and have talked with legislators, who are bipartisan, and have no agendas.
I remain unconvinced. Unmoved. Unmotivated. Uninspired. Mad. Maybe I should be happy with the status quo. Maybe I should go with the flow. Maybe I should just fall into alignment. It's not like I WANT to be left behind.
According to Dr Sanjay Gupta, sitting physician on CNN, it's my DNA's fault.
Well, maybe I am result of an alien experiment! But I just do not get all of the reasons WHY folks are supporting Barack Obama? Forsaking, of course, all of the obvious reasons (he's cute, he's an orator, he's a viable candidate-sorry Jesse Sr.) ~ Folks keep saying this is a movement. A civil rights movement? An environmental movement? A political bowel movement? An are-we-just-so-desperate we'll get excited about whatever movement?
I have always been a militant renegade, and always to some detriment. Maybe I should become an independent. Maybe I should leave politics alone. I keep saying that ~ and then I don't ~ I just can't. I am missing something, but I'm not quite sure exactly what it is. Beside its only four years. Or eight. We've had worse. At least everyone else is happy! Okay, THAT will be my mantra. I am hereby embracing everyone elses excitement! I guess.
~ If this were a classified ad I would sign it:
Lonely and Frustrated in the Blogosphere ~ signed the Odd Woman out